I'll Always Be

by Twan - Aries

i'll always be standing here looking at you
wondering what might have been
wishy-washy, putting up a front, whatever you might have said i could have taken
instead i'm all alone, not that i didn't want it
uncertain of my own faithfulness, i lie and say i never liked you
i know of who i am and what i am
my own faith hasn't been tested
in myself
i'll always be sliding into the darkness, being heartless still
holding things against people that they could hold against me
and i am Caeser,Julius, with the knife in my back
my lips sag in sadness but i'll turn my face into the light
not feeling good about what i did but i never do
having threesomes feeling guilty about who and what i promised to
do, nearly two years have passed and i was there, gradually i'd always be the hanged man
the one who lived alone was only sure of one person i loved outside my family
abrasive and destructive, cutting people off and up that's the way i'll always be 
listening to many bands my favorite'll always be the pumpkins
because i'm just me 
not, you, or dre or any one
not angel or jesse or jimmy or rick or chico or lewis or michael or max
just me
the way i'll always be.

Reason for writing:

    i guess thats how i explained it.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2002-01-17 20:04:58
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:36
Poem ID: 66767

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