I am the queen of loneliness, disappointment and despair. I sit and watch as life goes by and wish I weren't here. I live inside a cave of doom, darkness all around. Waiting for my white night, hoping to be found. My blood spills all around me, yet I never die. My soul wont leave this body, so here I sit and cry. The worms are crawling in my mouth, their taste is bitter sweet. They are my only nourishment, my heart won’t stop it’s beat. I wait here in this solitude and only wish to die. I bang my head against the walls, but no one hears my cries. Won’t someone come and get me, take me from this hell. “ Free me from this loneliness! ” is all that I can yell. Maggots all around me, I watch them as they crawl. Over my whole body, as on the ground I sprawl. I still dream of freedom, though it may never come. Trying not to feel this pain, wishing to be numb. I thought true love had come for me, but again it was a dream. You’d think by now that I would know, it’s just not in my theme. I guess I’m still a dreamer, waiting for my night. Hoping he will save me, and take me to the light. Make the creatures go away and free me from this cave. Rid me of these feelings, my life only he can save. Wrap me in his loving arms, and take me far from here. Take away the loneliness, disappointment and despair.
Reason for writing:
I have struggled with depression all of my life. This poem was written on one of those days that I felt hopeless.
Birth sign: Cancer
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