Dead Self (Part III- Final)

by Samantha - Scorpio

She steps out of the shower
Purified now by the rushing water
Now clean
Now new
But always alone

She stands there for a couple minutes
Trying to live in the moment of complete abandonment
The only time where her mind is completely shut off from the rest of the world
The only time where she can actually breathe

The image of her face reflects in the mirror opposite of her
Her weariness shows within her dead eyes
Her pale body, frail and sick with disease brought about by her companions
Blue lips display the chill of her now incomplete heart
Bruises mark the curves that held their hands

She thinks back to the days when she was younger
Coming home to an empty home
Suddenly awakened by the slamming of the back door
Her father is out again drinking
Drinking to his death with the cold beer of Sam’s Bar
Moms out also, getting the money to pay the rent
Whoring off her body with Dad’s friends

In he came
Her own kin
Her own brother
Coming back to take more
He was her first and she was his last
Before his death back in ‘93

His empty fingers prowled her then-warm breasts
Traveling the innocence of her youth 
Taking off her clothes
To display her enriched beauty
He moved with aggression
Taking what he wanted
Getting what he needed

Her delicate hands placed upon him to fulfill his fantasies
His tongue inside her body, drinking her purity
Her mouth resting around his dick
His hand rubbing her clit
No matter how loud she screamed no
He pushed her on
Threatened her
Beat her until she performed the deed

Now, years later, she stands
In a hotel room in New York City
Gazing into a mirror
Not even recognizing
Her 
   Dead Self.

Reason for writing:

    I wanted to continue but I am lost for ideas. If you have any good ideas about how I can continue this series... Please let me know and I'll take it into consideration and see if I can go on that.    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-01-21 23:47:44
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:37
Poem ID: 66858

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