Intimate Fractures

by Julie - Scorpio

you hurt me
intimate fractures
deeper with each strike
jealousy
anger
but maybe it was love
you gave up
i'm not sure what happened
something happened
something went wrong
if i knew, then maybe we could fix it
but i wouldn't want to
maybe it was just too much for us
but when your scent brings back those memories
so vivid in my mind
i think we could have handled anything
i loved you
truly, honestly, openly
you crushed me
deeply, angrily, truly
but the love still lives
he doesn't hold me like you did
though it's been so long
i can hardly recall your touch
his love or touch will never be like yours
but maybe that's what draws me to him
maybe it's the hurt that you left that draws me to him
it could just be the memories of you that i am clinging to
but i am slowly forgetting them
don't let me walk away
because i might forget everything
but maybe i want to forget
you were not only my love,
but my best friend
a love once so strong
now lost somewhere in the pages of our lives
and we can't seem to let go of our pride long enought to 
find it
but would i want to find it?
he looks in my eyes 
seeing to the inside of me
you always looked away
he whispers,"You're beautiful."
you said it only when i asked
he knows when and how to hold me
you always refrained
he tells me he loves me
but i can't say it back
my love is yours
and i'll never know why
choices we are given
but there's really no choice at all

Reason for writing:

    this was my "love life" situation at the time i wrote it. the one i love was my ex-boyfriend that i had dated for a year. i had a new boyfriend but i was slowly realizing that i still was in love with my ex.    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-01-26 00:23:09
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:39
Poem ID: 66939

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