Leading a Secret Life

by Samantha - Scorpio

You know what hurts the most?
What goes deep through your skin
Tags at your heart 
And just pulls you down so much farther than what you were before

It's the realization
That you have to face every day
When you are approached by someone you truely love
Truely care for
And having to tell them that 
The person they care about
Who they are looking at just now
Was raped
-Was hurt by someone who was once so close to them
So horrifically close that they knew everywhere she went
Everything she did
And could have so easily
Done it again
Maybe even killed her
That she lived in fear
Every day afterwards
Fearing the day that he would return
To reclaim her

For that's what I fear
Everytime I look into another guys eyes
Whenever I get close
Approach the point of intimacy
So much so that I find out everything about him
And find out it's time to tell him who I am
Yet it breaks me everytime
Whenever the guy says he's sorry
That he'll be there if I ever need him
Need to talk
And yet
Not even a couple days later
He's gone with the rest of them
Just because
He doesn't know how to deal.

Reason for writing:

    Another situation I was in recently    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-01-27 01:40:03
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:39
Poem ID: 66961

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