A suffering heart

by korn - Pisces

I have a suffering heart
realizing that if i even try to go suicidal it will just get worse
I think of my friends and wonder how much they actually care, then they say
i had another bad day today, just like every day
what's new?
I mean, my life isn't the worst, but it isn't the best
people think that they have the worst only cause what they're going through and the pain they feel, as do i
my life is being ruined by a cold hearted bitch
trying to take the friends that i have
i am healing my wounds now though
regaining my strength 
although i'm not in the best position with a friend right now
i'm not sure of how much she actually cares
i have wishes, wishing to find an actual true friend
that asks me how i am everyday and know me as much as i know myself
and someone that knows what to do and NOT to do
someone that understands me and knows how to cheer me up
i have a cut across my wrist
thinking that would make it better
just as i said making it worse
i have a suffering heart that i can't heal
an unhealable wound
people thinking my life is like a funny riddle
thinking i will laugh at their jokes
i'm a pisces i can't help my damn sensitivity!
that's just something they're gonna have to deal with
besides why should i change for someone that wants me to change just for them?
and why do i make friends with people that never care
and never tells me anything
and lies, ALL LIES!
i guess my suffering heart is healable
it just will take a while

Reason for writing:

    I don't have a true friend, someone that understands me and people think that i like people that they DON'T KNOW WHAT THEY'RE TALKING ABOUT. and people think i am just a joke, and no one cares about me.    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2002-01-31 22:26:54
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:41
Poem ID: 67063

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