convenience store

by Matthias L. - Capricorn

it's the uncertain feeling 
of having too much luck and nothing to regret
that is slowly driving me insane
called into a life in the middle of a cardboard box 
one with nothing more than flashy letters on it

from outside, there is more than just words,
that kind of subliminal messages you're always confronted with
when placed at the wrong end of the table
as if you had no other choice than to swallow it all,
the no-escape option and the lies,
painted into the sky with neon light

in an attempt to be put into a place 
that might let me appear good enough to make 
your life so much better
they're selling me as an eyecatcher for your empty shelves
that final line written down in desperation
at last responded to by that special person
you always wish would be listening
and the soundtrack of life, trapped in loop mode forever
now is changing its tune into a modern art form of regression

pulling off the layers of skin from my bare hands
with jagged fangs that once used to do nothing more than that in the old days
I begin to reveal the penetrating odor of the living flesh,
trying to escape its motionlessness with a weak glance 
thrown against the cold eye of empty promises
resolving one riddle after another 
until the need for a price tag next to my name
no longer has any reason to exist

then, as light crawls through the decaying walls of my little world
and I'm shaking with the idea of being nothing but a short surprise 
to a world where no one has anywhere left to go
I fear there's more below your heart than the faked smiles
Craving the thought that you might want to reach beyond my silence
inquiring into me until I have nothing left to say,
I hide away in the darkest corners of a certain dream
until your search for a lost treasure
erodes the last part of me
Birth sign: Capricorn
Date created: 2002-02-04 01:53:11
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:43
Poem ID: 67150

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