Resurrected Angel

by Samantha - Scorpio

I can't fully explain what you have done to me
Or let alone, done for me
And God... there isn't a day that goes by 
That I don't thank the Lord above for you 
Entering my life the way that you have

I remember that day very clearly
Walking into class
Unusually solemn and held back
I didn't want anyone to go near me
Or let alone touch me

But something was different about the way that you reacted
Something that can't be explained
That.... just is
Just worked that way
And at that space and time, I just knew you were meant to stay

With my head laid upon the table
You didn't question nor speak 
Just patted my head
No words needed to be said 
You knew there was something wrong

At first, I was afraid to tell you
Afraid to know what you would say
React or do in the long run
How could I have ever been afraid of you?
You were the only one who stayed

When the words started bleeding from my lips
Instead of growing distant, you grew closer
Instead of pulling away, you drew near
Instead of pity, you gave sympathy
You gave hope- encouragement

I never told you this but I always thought you were the only one who believed me
Who wanted to learn about what had happened and physically, emotionally help me through
You never once walked out on me in my time of need
You never once changed the subject, laughed and joked around
You never once stopped believing- holding onto my hand

I think that's why, after so long
I just let go of everyone else
All the while, clinging onto you
Because in some way or other, they had hurt me
Maybe not purposely, but hurt nonetheless

You were the only who proved to care
And treated it as an adult
Is that why you were different?
You were the only one to grow up as fast I have?
You just... understood

But one of the most important things you have ever done
Or shown
Was the understanding that it would take time to heal what I have lost
Time to fix myself- recooperate
You saw the things I have done after what had happened
Good and bad, and you just understood that some of it wasn't my fault
That I still had a bit of recovering to do

And with you by my side
I know I can overcome anything
For I've survived the hardest thing to ever hit my life
And now it's time for me to understand, myself
That if I could survive that, I could survive anything else that comes along.

Reason for writing:

    To my best friend- Alisa... for always being there when I was going through what I had to do last year.    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-02-04 22:32:23
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:14
Poem ID: 67182

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