Alone In The Darkness

by Twan - Aries

isn't like i mind being alone by myself
close out everyone that heckles me and shut my ears to criticism
let my pain out silently, let the tension come from me
nice to know that they care enough to leave me alone
but i want a different existance
something where i wish
i wasn't me or wasn't the way my brother wants me to be
that my brain could solve all that haunts and defeats me
lying awake at 5am lets me realize that thats not a good time to think
its okay not to give in, or give way, faced with threats i merely respond by not giving in to them
wisdom comes hard-and slow, not given enough time to grow before i had to become grown
unable to deal with what has befallen me is how i feel
its hard for me to understand just why i am the way i am
feeling immature feeling like screaming feeling like i just want my life to be the way it used to be
and it probably won't be are the thoughts that run through my head
as i sit in my room, alone, left to the darkness with the coming shadows of dawn.

Reason for writing:

    Last Night.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2002-02-08 14:22:57
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:45
Poem ID: 67292

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