Dear Mum,

by Beth - Scorpio

DEAR MUM,
             For all the years I loved you
             For all the tears I cried
             for all the times I bled
             And swallowed all your lies,

     All those years of playing make-believe
     to project a "happy home"
     For those nights I cried myself to sleep
     In the dark and all alone.
   
I want to show you all the anger
all the hurt and all the pain
But I buried it so deep,Mum,
Can't say when it will rise again

     The wounds they cut real deep
     they still weep in my dreams
     And in your nightmares I wonder
     Do you ever hear me scream?

           I don't know why you hurt me so
           Or why you do the things you do
           Or why I look the  other way
           to make life easier on you

If I looked down deep and searched real hard
I know just what I'd see
I'd see how much I hate you,Mum
And all the shit you did to me

               And for once I'd like to talk to you
               Tell why all this has to be
               And to have you look me in the eye
               And tell me something I can believe....

Reason for writing:

    I am the Queen of repression, and some times it just spurts out.    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-02-08 15:54:48
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:45
Poem ID: 67294

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