Terrifying Thoughts

by korn - Pisces

What goes through my mind
no one is aware
so scared
of the thought of death
scared that if i'm still alive
and my friends aren't
i would wish i would've died along with them

no one thinks a shooting will happen at their school
You should think twice
I know I am
you don't know what is running through people's minds
But i know i won't be the same
just the fucking thought about it

i thought i was friends with him
but it comes to me that he is in it
along with someone else
and killing himself afterwords
i can't deal with this
a great guy that could make a difference in the world
wants everyone to die
even me

i'm confused
whether to be disappointed that he's thinking of killing me
a friend i thought i was to him
i don't want to die
i want to have a man to fall in love with
i can't die now

i feel so angry yet i feel like crying all the fluid out of my body on to the floor

i can't stand the thought! 
me dying? what people would do without me...
if my friends died, I definentely know I wouldn't survive
alone...
i would never forget them

i hate having the same thought going through my head
the thoughts that make me feel i already am dead
it already happened
so why can't i get rid of..
these terrifying thoughts

Reason for writing:

    I heard something I don't know if I really wanted to.
I thought I was friends with him and I thought I made him happy, this is making me depressed cause they he would go suicidal afterwords, i would be so depressed, i already am.
    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2002-02-14 14:12:50
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:50
Poem ID: 67513

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