I lied

by Illusion - Libra

I lied whem I said I could handle it, that I'd have no emotions.
I lied when I said I felt nothing for you either, that it was just physical.
I lied to you, even more I lied to myself.
It kills me to feel so much for someone who feels nothing.
I adored you from afar hoping that someday you'd notice me.
When you finally did it was my body and not my heart.
I tried to front for you and pretend that I wasn't emotionally attached.
I lied, I lied to the both of us.
Maybe someday I will let you in on my hidden misery.
When we were intimate, I was making love while you were just trying to fuck.
I am so emotionally torn, so destraught.
Yet I yearn for your touch,for your kiss.
I want to caress your body and embrace your lips.
I should've known better, you even said it yourself that you cannot belong to just one.
I couldn't resist, it was the only chance I had to fulfill a small part of my dreams.
Things are already different, you look at me funny.
Maybe you can sense the sorrow of my heart, the lies I told it.
Maybe you got what you wanted and that's that.
More than anything I want you to be the liar, to say you feel the same as I do, to tell me that you lied to me too.
Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2002-02-16 12:37:55
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:51
Poem ID: 67570

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