Nothing...

by Beth - Scorpio

I'm staring into nothing
staring straight at you.
How are you Dad? 
Me?, I'm still not pulling through.
I'm still screaming on the inside
But then that's nothing new
Staring into nothing
staring straight at you.
can you see the mess you left behind?
see how your children bleed?
Did you ever care, even a bit?
for all the hurt you were too wasted to see?
Hey Dad, what's it like there?
ARe you in heaven or in hell?
I don't know why I care so much
sometimes it's hard to tell.
Do I love you, or do I hate you?
I don't know anymore
I know how pissed off I feel inside
I know my eyes are sore.
Do I want you to be free
of all the pain you felt you had to hide?
Or would I prefer to see you burn,
In hells unrelenting fire?
Do I love you, do I hate you? 
Do I feel anything at all?
I know that sometimes I feel glad
that you aren't here anymore.
Hey Dad, did you know it's your birthday?
Another year you won't grow old.
Another year without you
another day I feel so cold
I think my tears have finally dried up
Now I just feel like a fool
my body aches from sobbing
sobbing futile tears for you
I'm still staring into nothing
staring straight at you
Inside I am still screaming
inside I still feel blue.
But as I wipe the salt from my face
i wipe away a part of you
Still staring into nothing
still staring staright at you. 


Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-02-18 20:55:57
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:52
Poem ID: 67655

You need to log in to edit this poem if it is yours.

View more poems by Beth.