I think Im always trying to make everyone else happy and never myself It stresses me out when I cant please someone Maybe because Im so eager to be liked No one knows or will ever quite understand the confusion in my mind Im fighting a war against myself And cant tell yet whether it will result in victory or defeat But im struggling to survive Pushing back this depression that so strongly trying to crawl in I wont let it break me Ive come this far, its such a waste to stop now Its just not the end But im so scared, terrified even of whats to come in the future All this hard work, I just need a rest To lie my tired head down But im afraid if I shut my eyes now I may never open them For weakness and temptation are so easy to given in to To just quit and say Im done Finshed with this whole thing Ive never thought I wasnt stroung enough until now Being treated unfairly and looked down upon is making me have doubts Doubting my inner strength Doubting my self-worth Doubting that my small existence in this huge world even means a thing So where do I fit in? Whats my place? Why do I matter? The unanswered questions that race through my brain never stop My thoughts are constantly clouded and I cant even concencrate on being me Ive lost myself and need to be found once again Someone come and put me on the right track,Guide me along I look for help, but who do I trust? Whose really right? Im exhausted, but sleep never comes The hours turn to days and I see the sun come up and I see the sun go down and my eyelids never move Im overwhelmed and my head pounds, throbs, aches for the knowledge of whats to come Im so worried of what will happen next that Im not living now My life is passing me by and soon I wont know whats the past, whats the present and which direction is the future Im letting go today of the pain, the frustration and the problems that are pestering my soul, eating away at me Im gonna live for today and make people please me for a change Ill never be happy until I can be happy on my own So Im starting...todayBirth sign: Cancer
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