Selfish Suicide

by Nicole M. - Gemini

How spoiled
With life
Some of us are-
Delusional in the idea
it's your place
to throw it away.
You think it's glory?
An easy way out
Of the pain?
Well, let me tell you
Differently.





An icy road and a drunk
Put me in this ditch
Pinned by the car
A ton of cold metal.
A steering wheel in my stomach
Rupturing anything it found handy
Broken bones plaguing my body...
Tell me...
Have you ever had
the opportunity to touch
Your large intestine?
I have...
It feels like raw squid..
Have you ever picked up your finger
With the hand it was once
Attached with?
I have...I saw the pink bone
Poking through mounds of torn flesh..
Still bending..

But no concern of pain
Because of the jagged metal
That severed my spinal column.
The life I had taken for granted
Drained from my body
And stained everything around me...
I lost control of my body
Pee ran down my leg
As my bladder stopped working...
While I choked on my vomit
Since I could no longer open my mouth
Because you know
You're body relaxes
As you start dying

And I began to see
What waited...



No bright light
Loved ones weren't waiting
There was nothing
At the otherside
Of this tunnel
I began to experience
Life prior to birth...
It never existed
Life, that is.
As I began
To stop being...
The spirit was dying
And there was no place for it...
it just started to disapate.


Before you pick up the gun
Or pop the pills
Hoping that something better
Comes...
Sure
That this world
Is as bad as it gets.
Well there's nothing as bad
As not existing.
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2002-02-21 23:45:43
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:54
Poem ID: 67757

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