You took us to the movies tonight Said a song was going to come on the radio As soon as you did it played. Dad and I have been having problems lately When you went to work you told Larry about it You said the song was a dedication to me from him You referring him to 'the guy who gave me the flag sticker' Because you didn't want Joyce to know who you were talking about You told me he said he knew what I was going through And he knew what I felt And you placed your hand on my knee and squeezed it Just like Dad always did when we went for a drive. Hearing that song on the radio brought a lump to my throat One I couldn't get rid of One that's still there I don't know what to think by it Not sure what to do. My anger is still there towards Dad How he treats me so unfairly With that cold hard steel hand It's hard to look past that and find love I suppose it's something I can't understand yet Something that you figure out with time I know things will go back to normal Dad will actually walk down the hall one day and speak to me Instead of holding his nose in the air Saying he'll see Joyce on Sunday night And then slamming the door behind him. Love in Daddy's hands is unknown to me I've never had the chance to cry to him To let him comfort me .. only once. And it wasn't really something significant Because it was just an arm around the shoulder While I stared down at grandpa in his casket And after about a minute I shrugged him off. If there's love there, I don't really know I don't think I'll know for some time Though he's my Father I don't feel as if he is And it's been that way for a long time now Sometimes I wish I could feel as if he was I wish I knew what everyone talked about when they say Dad does this around the house and this But then again I like it here the way it is Just us four girls You Joyce Me and the cat Christy No cold, hard, steel hands Sometimes it's nice just to have silence And a world to cry in all alone.Birth sign: Pisces
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