Daddy's Hands

by Dark Angel - Pisces

You took us to the movies tonight
Said a song was going to come on the radio
As soon as you did it played.

Dad and I have been having problems lately
When you went to work you told Larry about it
You said the song was a dedication to me from him
You referring him to 'the guy who gave me the flag sticker'
Because you didn't want Joyce to know who you were talking about

You told me he said he knew what I was going through
And he knew what I felt
And you placed your hand on my knee and squeezed it
Just like Dad always did when we went for a drive.

Hearing that song on the radio brought a lump to my throat
One I couldn't get rid of
One that's still there
I don't know what to think by it
Not sure what to do.

My anger is still there towards Dad
How he treats me so unfairly
With that cold hard steel hand
It's hard to look past that and find love

I suppose it's something I can't understand yet
Something that you figure out with time
I know things will go back to normal
Dad will actually walk down the hall one day and speak to me
Instead of holding his nose in the air
Saying he'll see Joyce on Sunday night
And then slamming the door behind him.

Love in Daddy's hands is unknown to me
I've never had the chance to cry to him
To let him comfort me
.. only once.
And it wasn't really something significant
Because it was just an arm around the shoulder 
While I stared down at grandpa in his casket
And after about a minute I shrugged him off.

If there's love there, I don't really know
I don't think I'll know for some time
Though he's my Father
I don't feel as if he is
And it's been that way for a long time now

Sometimes I wish I could feel as if he was
I wish I knew what everyone talked about when they say
Dad does this around the house and this
But then again I like it here the way it is
Just us four girls
You
Joyce
Me
and the cat Christy
No cold, hard, steel hands

Sometimes it's nice just to have silence
And a world to cry in all alone.
Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2002-02-23 21:51:01
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:15
Poem ID: 67807

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