Shadow of Myself

by Shanna - Sagittarius

Am i 2 4ever remain in the shadow of myself
Not me,the me i portray
The uncaring,unfeeling,and insensitive woman they see
Am i 2 4ever hide under my pain
Smiling from within but all they see is an icy stare
The cold glare i give them 2 cover my laughter
When will i be able 2 show my true self
2 expose the bare nakedness of me
With all my flaws,my desires,and my joy
Would u see me through the same eyes/
Could they handle my ups and downs?
No,they couldn't
So until the day i find someone who searches under the rubble and dirt that has been thrown carelessly into my soul
They look 2 find the real me
The me no one has seen 
Until then...i will close myself up 2 the world
And remain in the shadow of myself hidden under my pain

Reason for writing:

    Sometimes i feel like no one will love me if the knew all about me.My close friends know how silly i am but i am a very shy person.If i don't feel comfortable around u i won't act like myself.i'll be very withdrawn and some people that just got 2 know me said i was stuck up even. But one day i'll get over that fear.Thanx    

Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 2002-03-03 17:59:29
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:45:58
Poem ID: 67987

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