Scrambled Brains

by Nicole M. - Gemini

Up is purple
Down is loud
I'm ether
and your E.T
The one in my dream.

Although
Its physically impossible
Mentally my mind has been
Scrambled.

I think 
as clique as it can be
I'm in love
With a man 
friendly
close to me
one minute anyway
and the next
I'm sick of your
martyr perfectionism.
I want nothing to do with you

for weeks
but I'd love
just one more minute

while you're      here with me.
i argued with the ex 
again
I should hae     just 
played a recordin
   g of the last one
would saved me va
  luable time

and the only     explaination
I was thinking is
He's not you
and i loved old times
knowing I was right

and   that he was falsely
fixated with me.

you joke and kid
and I know you
plenty
to know
all of    that 
was ` just that
but still
that little
paranoid voice
that just shut up
says
  he's leaving
    you've lost him
   he knows what you've been thinking
  now you've gone and done it
     you could never hide feelings
what the hell are you doing
bitch?
  naggin anyone else
just because you're fragile self
can't        handle 
  all the critisms
you kn
 ow have merit.

I hate you
Because you have
Painfully failure
But that's just because of me
and I find you
nuturing and safe
because
you actually
  possibly (damn self doubt)
like me
  in the none sugar way.
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2002-03-06 02:59:35
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:00
Poem ID: 68087

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