Stains on My Soul

by Ms. TKay - Cancer

I was young
Still a teeny bopper
About 19
Living in a world I had never seen
In love with a guy about my age
A love that turned into total rage
This guy was in my system so damn deep
If he wasn't near me at night, I couldn't even sleep
Nothing positive came from that relationship 
Except the lesson I know now
Took so much emotional abuse and I don't know how
Got knocked up but ridded myself 
Of a love I'll never ever hold
It will always and forever be a stain on my soul

A few years later
Older and more mature
By then, I should have been making better decisions for sure
But I got involved with one who was careless
Careless as careless can be
To immature to even think about me
No real emotions
I realized, too late, not enough respect
And I ended up being something I didn't expect
All because I wasn't using my common sense 
And I got caught
So angry with myself, I was totally distraught
And talking to him didn't do any good
He suggested exactly what I thought he would
I was so confused cause I was already getting attached
Wanted so badly to let that egg hatch
But I didn't have it together
Couldn't tell my parents....oh, what stormy weather!!!
Had a talk with my brother, he gave me advice
What he told me wasn't nice
With tears in my eyes, I did what I was told
Now I have permanent stains on my soul
Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2002-03-08 00:31:21
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:01
Poem ID: 68143

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