Undeserving

by ~Ms. Sarah~ - Cancer

Right now I dont think I am deserving of anything
Love, praise or sympathy
All these problems effecting my life were created by me
My lack of ambition is killing me
Only making me sink further into my
bottomless pit of despair
I'll never reach the top unless I try and hang on
Not just let go and say its outta my hands
I control all this, but Ive given
it up to this depression
I said go ahead and take it
I gave up and failed myself
What a disappointment Ive become
Not to all of them, but to me
I have dreams and hopes and plans
Ive always mapped out my future
But somewhere I got lost
I took a turn onto an empty road to a
deserted, isolated place and instead
of turning around I just got deeper 
and deeper into it
No body wants to be around me
And honestly I dont blame them
I dont want to be around me either
My attitude is horrible
I cant believe Ive lost all hope
I dont even care what happens
I let guys walk all over me
I let friends pass me by
I see their hands stretched out
to help me and I push them away
I dont know if I like being sad
Or I just dont know how to be happy...

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2002-03-08 02:32:56
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:01
Poem ID: 68151

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