The Life I Live
Today is a day I have never seen, I try not to notice the pain as it piles next to me. My life is dark and filled with
unhappiness and loneliness. I try desparately to change for my friends and family, but never took the time of day to
change for myself. It hurts, life hurts everyday the same, the same pain. I am torn between the three people I love
the most. My family. My parents don't seem to be much help so I turn to my sister,drugs and physical abuse. I try to
tell them how I feel but it never comes out right, always wrong, never right that is how my life was told to me. They
think that I don't care and that all Ii want is their money. They sit in their little box's telling lie's to themselves to
make them feel normal. Normal,what is normal? They tell me to be normal when i don't know or even care what
normal is. I am normal to me and thats all that matters, but they can't see that. Blinded by their lies and
unforgetable doubt. They can't see, they can't see inside me. It's depressing when they lie and tell me to do better
when I am already doing my best. I try and try but never satisfy. I work for hours and hours only to be a slave to the
world that has no meaning to me, this world is hell, that burns and burns so you will never turn. I see my sister,
strong, independent and sometimes leading a bad life. But she has messed up but messing up doesn't change our
relationship. She has made it this far and will make it even further in years to come. My father says my sister is up
to no good but some of the words he tells only makes more hell. She is a good person only looking out for herself
and me. Eventhough we are far apart we are still closer than ever before. She has taught me more than anyone in my
entire life. She does some stuff that I am very upset with but I forgive her and still love her. Sometimes life can be
hard and most of the time it gets harder and harder. People, even my parents, can't see me. They try to make me
how they want me to be, but NO, never will I be like them. I will love my family no matter what, I would and will not
ever put my kids and my wife through what I am going through now. My father strong in the heart but weak in the
mind. My mother blinded by money and is pulled in by the system. My sister, independent, moody and strong, has no
fear. Me, I will follow in my sister's foot steps but only to a point, I will trust my parents but only to be lied to by the
world. Life is unfair, to heavy is the load on my shoulders, to light is the load in my heart.
Birth sign: Pisces
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