Haunted

by Christie - Aries

You left when the sky fell dark
Along the side of an angel
Leading your heart
Hand and hand she took you
High in the sky
To your destination
Far away from the pain
You so long felt
I cried with anger
To me it just wasn’t fair
I wanted you with me
But instead you chose to go there
I couldn't seem to let go
my life was put on hold
I wanted to shut myself out
away from everyone and I did
I missed you we were so close
how could you have left me alone
how selfish you were
not at all concerned with me
and everyone that loved you
you made a bad choice
but we were the ones to lose
I hated you some part of me
was actually glad that you were dead
I didnt need you all you did
was cause me pain
I hope your happy
leaving behind these tears
when you left
so unexpectantly 
thats how i felt
Then one night you came to me in my sleep
Told me how sorry you were
and you never meant to hurt me
I wanted to believe
that God had a reason to take you away
that i wasnt being punished 
even though I hated him for not letting you stay
You told me everything was going to be okay
you'd always be there 
in my heart
to guide me
and to love me
like a big brother was suppose to
I hated me for hating you
told me it was ok to forgive
How foolish I must have been
It was me who left and not you

Reason for writing:

    my older brother was killed in a car accident a year ago, he and some friends were driving drunk    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2002-03-21 19:03:33
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:07
Poem ID: 68470

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