FOR CYPHER

by Supergirl - Pisces

Ive read all of your poems
up until this day
I dont understand why
you say the things you say
It wasnt until after 
I called it quits 
that I truly realized 
who I was with
love is blind
and so was I
so much pain 
and so many lies
suicidal thoughts
sleepless nights
severe depression
took over my life
no one to talk to
my friends were not there
I lost out on so much
over a guy who didnt care
you had your fun 
while i sat at home
up sick all night
crying alone
youll never know
what you put me through
I knew a lot more
than you knew i knew
despite all of this
I was still there
I still knew you needed 
someone who cared
I honestly did
but loves' what we lacked
its hard to love someone
who doesnt love you back
how can a person
treat anyone that way
and still feel no guilt
playing their games
I finally realized
how your mind works
thats why I left
Im wasnt the jerk
Ive now found someon
thats made me so happy
a "fuckup gangsta"
who loves me for me
Hes everything
a boyfriend should be
he puts me first
and meets all my needs
so when i look back
and remember us
without any love 
and without trust
I cant regret
the decision I made
no more getting hurt 
and no more being played
I forgive you 
for what you have done
but dont blame me
for what has become

 


 

Reason for writing:

    I thought my ex(you know who you are)deserved to hear how I feel and why.Even though he's a gangster or whatever, Nick treats me better than any guy ever has. He understands the meaning of a relationship just like me and he makes me feel good about myself. He stays with me and brings me out with him when he goes out so I know what he does.The only problems we have are problems that still haunt me from my past relationship but things are slowly going back to normal.(and no Im not a different person than I was before,just a little bit smarter and less naive.)Im soory if youre mad after reading this cypher but you have to know and stop being so suicidal.You had and still have a chance to change your outlook on life.Stop feeling sorry for yourself and figure out who you are and what you want and give up the innocent act.    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2002-03-23 23:18:19
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:08
Poem ID: 68532

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