And I Fell

by Samantha - Scorpio

I never really thought that I'd be the one to take the heap
Then again I never thought you'd be the last I'd ever see
I envy you in some ways
Always so confident
So cool and refined
Don't give a care about nobody
Just do what you do
But every time that I fall closer to the edge
I realise
That you've always been the one pushing me
Pushing hard against me
Trying to get me to break
And I would fall helplessly into your arms
Fearing the day that I ever made my own decisions
I listened long and hard to everybody else
Good or bad
Didn't matter
I fell
Helplessly and misguided
And one of those set of arms was you
Only you were the bad in any advice given
Knowing full well that I fell victim to anything and anyone
Now I look into the mirror and see you on the other side
Clinging hopelessly to the edge that I had dangled from for all these years
Reaching for my hand
Yet your hand remains empty
I have seemed to push you farther than I have ever been pushed
Now you're sinking within all mercy
Crying for my help
Only this time
My eyes don't soften
My hand doesn't tempt to reach
As I turn and walk away
From a love that I never once really felt.
Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-03-25 23:43:11
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:10
Poem ID: 68604

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