one day not to long ago seemed like only one way out to a day of dirt the reason for trying so hard just to realize it was a fail from the get go im just wanna go back to beer i wanna just be boozen and always be loosing out i just wanna get fuckin high , and live like a lie i wanna take lots of drugs and hopefully make me high enough to actually enjoy a little I dont Care annymore is it a reason just to already quite? tell me this what i have so hard driven for that it actually would turn against me like always am i supose to just grab and run am i supose to cry when my tears have already dried am i a lie that just never shows the truth am i dead already have i died when my heart sank in the ocean were the search has startted but never wanted to actually search i am seeking nothing more i dont want nothing more give me a last nothing i never wanted nothing i never had much born n raised myslef for most of it never really looked never really found never really wanted to try anyway never really wanted annymore of it even though my heart said no i have turned away from feelings i just let my passion burn out like the bits of a fire with a few ashes left i have just let my affection crawl under the carpet to hide i just leave it and step on it i just let love walk over me all the time for i am a fool wich i dont want none of you to know i get a little sicker i get a little tired evertime i swim back up for a grasp of air im drowning and i have not left any more request i just wanna stop and sink one last time fade my thoughts to black fade my sight to black put the pressure against this wilted head this head that so been brutall kissed this kiss that kissed me to the ocean of hope this hope that kills me to only fail im hoplessly lost i just wanna die whats there to live for? whats there to see? whats left for me? how many times they put my heart aside to the road that they said they would come along with me as i walk through it how many fuckin times have they tossed for at night i cant sleep anymore not with this urge of a mending heart this face that wants to cry this mind that wants to die this heart that will never fly this heart ready to explode I dont wanna die in tears i just wanna drink a beer i just wanna get stoned please i hope this drug takes me off away to soemthing less shitty take me away take me off stop throwing me away just leave leave this away as a far off thought as possible beneath the dreams of motions were a dream will never become true and a lie is all i had and a hope thats all i had left and the lie won and it has taken me far away and now has slowly turned back unto me now misery feaver has overwelamed ever part of me this fight is over this battle for nothing this nothing for me theress somewere im needed were theres nothing left were theres nothing to do were thers just nohting at all ill embrace to this nothing nothing all i ever was nothing
Reason for writing:
I dont know?
Birth sign: Aries
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