I thought about
what you said
about being
open
and sharing my feelings
all the little
things
that lurk inside
you wanted them
by you're naive
just like you said
emotionally retarted
what are you going to do
when reality
bitch slaps you
in the face...
Would you like to
know
about the guy I fucked
for one whole minute
and then he wussed out
had regrets
would you like to know that?
How I could be a whore
If I only had the means
Would you like to know
How many men's dicks I've sucked on
and how much cum
I've swallowed
would you like to hear that?
How about feelings
maybe those will be
a little more
of what you were expecting
would you like to hear
that no matter how much
love I can try to have
in the end
I always hate what's looking back at me
the fat
the huge ass
and big chest
the jagged mutilated scars
no one else sees
want to feel
how it truely feels
to hate yourself
To over indulge
in trivial things
because you truely
damn well believe
you're not able
to find it in meaningful things
Would you like to know
I'm worthless
I'm just a hole
Or when I just shrug it off
and say
it's the men
deep down
where I really don't care to go again
I'm saying fuck me
I'm the defect
would you like to know
that you make me feel
unworthy of anything
of the healthy nature
and you don't even know it
would you like to know
how much I hate you
and your ignorance
because of the way I care for you
I have to live with that everyday
Do you know
I hate every word
I've said
tonight
and other times
because they left me standing there
without a leg
I thought about it
and you'd never really like
what you heard and saw in me
So now
why don't you think about it.
Birth sign: Gemini
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