Tease

by Nicole M. - Gemini

She never shopped
at the GAP
   or any yuppie store
  only because
the clothes weren't big enough

Her face was plain
  she didn't have defined cheek bones
her breasts were huge
  but sagged

The clothes
  weren't cool
but rather ordinary
she was a geek
  and an ugly one at that

She never knew
  until those boys started whispering
I'd never go out with her
She made sure not to cry
when those older girls in math class
  said hey stupid,
laughing when she turned around
she knew damn well
  he didn't break up with her
because his dad thought he was too young
it was his friends telling him
   she wasn't one 
of them
   too ugly
 too much body
   too dorky

Tears
fell at night
  when no one could hear them hitting
and she just kept telling herself
  how right everyone had been
She showed them just how ugly she could get
   ate to fill the gaping hole
she had dug
  lost it
to show them just how worthless
 this life had become

she prayed everyday
 she would just become part of the background
be nothing special
   and anything but extrordinary
put a good 60 pounds of fat
   between herself and everyone else

she had convinced herself
  that in all of those two hundred and fifty pounds
there wasn't an ounce to love
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2002-04-06 23:12:55
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:16
Poem ID: 68946

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