12 Steps

by PunkyThespian - Libra

I'm 12 steps from suicide, 
I'm 3 steps from insane. 
I'm all alone in this cruel world, 
my death is preordainde. 

I take one step closer, 
and reach for my knife. 
I think about the time I've waisted, 
in this endless mase we call life. 

I take another step 
and decide I'm going to go out with fun, 
I throw away the silver blade, 
I instead reach for my gun. 

I take three more steps 
and try my hardest not to cry 
I cock the gun and raise my arm, 
I know this is how I will die. 

I think about the world, 
and what the news will say, 
"A girl committed suicide, 
it wasn't her only way." 

Headlines in the papers, 
misguiding and untrue, 
I take another step 
and think of what to do. 

"Goodbye mamma and dad, 
JR and SM too, 
I hope you all have wonderful lives, 
I'll be watching over you." 

I look at the gun, 
still raised to my head, 
as I take my final step, 
I pull the trigger now I'm dead. 

I wake up in a sweat, 
and realize it t'was all a dream, 
I try to remember just where I am, 
and suddenly it seems, 

I am 12 steps from suicide, 
three steps from insane. 
I'm all alone in this cruel world, 
my death is preordainde.
Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2002-04-07 20:44:51
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:17
Poem ID: 69004

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