Headaches

by ~***a chick***~ - Pisces

These headaches wont go away
its like its always raining even on sunny days
Cant be happy with anything
feeling as if I've lost everything.
No where to go to get away
so I guess I'll just stay
lock myself in my own mind
where I cant run out of time
Fantasize about the perfect life
knowing that I'm your vice
when reality sets in 
I feel so strange in my own skin
It doesn't even feel like my own
this mind of mine hasn't grown.
Cant seem to sleep
I dont want to eat
Nothing makes sense anymore
and I really just want to walk out that door
get away from you and everyone else
just be someplace where I can be without all the stress and miserable things 
dont like to spend my time wondering
Silence cuts in me like a knife
life really isn't that nice
sometimes I wish I was the one that died
then you'd be going to my grave to cry.
But that isn't the case is it?
I just wish I could've had one more visit.

Reason for writing:

    about my depression and my dad combined I guess...sometimes I think that he wasn't the one that should've died I should've died, maybe in a way I wish I was the one that did.    

Birth sign: Pisces
Date created: 2002-04-13 23:44:06
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:21
Poem ID: 69224

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