R.I.P. Baby Girl

by Nicole M. - Gemini

With a shirt soaked in salt water
  flushed cheeks
 and a sucker punched heart
I will try to do you justice
   and hope this is one time
my words do not fall short
  of expressing what's brewing inside
this heavy heart.

 the love I held
and still hold
for you
  I don't believe
anyone could understand
they wouldn't understand
  what these tears are made of
these tears that can't stop
 falling

I will hold onto these memories
until the day
  I also die
the rest of me, anyway
I short lived smile
  creeps across my face
only to induce another flood

God I miss you
  my heart misses you
   my soul misses you

secrets I shared
  are now barried with you
the love you let me give
  and love you gave 
took happiness
  when you left

I'm in awe
  with how much
 hate I hold for a world
that you are no longer in

oh who the hell am I kidding...I don't know how to write about this...
  I can't fix this...I can't make it go away...I hate it, I hate how this feels...I hated the sound in my father's voice...I hated the tears he held back, and I hated the ones he let out even more..I hate it that no matter what kind of poet I think I am, I can't even begin to make anyone understand who you where and what I'll never get back...I'm dying because it'll never be this easy to love somebody.
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2002-04-19 21:13:45
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:22
Poem ID: 69291

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