how would i feel?

by er - Gemini

Those words hit me
 To fast to understand at first
 crashing my insanity as I understood the depth of them.

 At first I couldn't breathe,
The moment of realization came as my chest began to explode.
 My world continued spinning as uncontrolled tears began to fall.

 Rainclouds became my new bestfriend,
Surrounding my soul,
 Making me hate all of you.

Detesting anything full of life,
 Including myself.
 
Falling and falling deeper into this new kind of living,
 Having to slowly say goodbye
Day after day.

Spitting on fate and speeding up the destruction of me.
 Feeling an overwhelming apathy for this life,
that I so desperatly wanted to hold on to.

Reason for writing:

    wondering how I would feel if I ever got A.I.D.S. certainly much worse than this.    

Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2002-04-25 23:55:39
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:24
Poem ID: 69375

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