All These Maybe's

by PunkyThespian - Libra

All These Maybe's
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I stand naked
As naked as the moon,
as still as an island who's shore
roll away into the sea.
I don't wish to be an island......but I am

I said "I remember what we had"
he said "I remember what we lost"
I don't remember what went wrong.

They said "It's time"
I said "two minutes, two minutes!"
They said "now c'mon"
I said "just two more minutes!"
I heard the shot ring through my body
the hairs stood on my arms
I froze
I lost a friend I loved for more than a lifetime for 2
minutes
I chose wrong.......it was two minutes too long.

All these "maybe's" drift between my ears,
"what if's", hover on my lips
I don't know; what's the difference?
I'm living under the influence.

I want to jump.....it looks to far but
I want to jump.....I'm scared of what's below but
I want to jump.....I don't know
I don't believe we get to choose our fears
I want to jump.....off my bed, but I'm still scared

Saltwater drips from my optic organs
runs down the lane, round the corner
and past the little girl telling nursery rhymes to
herself
off the edge of this world
and explodes as it lands.
Then my face falls to my hands.
I just discovered I can't please everyone.....
.....that doesn't please me.
Birth sign: Libra
Date created: 2002-04-27 17:19:42
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:24
Poem ID: 69397

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