Living in Memories

by Nicole M. - Gemini

I realized
you were gone
  eternally
     a tear welled up in my right eye

I acknowledged
  I would never touch your body again
    that tear raced down my face

All your idiosyncrisies
  vanished
 Five tears from each eye
crawled to the back of my neck

I sobbed when I knew
  I would never hold you again

I cursed God and anything else
  I wanted to
   they stole you from me

I curled up in the fetal position
  soaking myself in my own tears
    as loneliness sufficated me

There was no one else
  that would just love me
   not matter what
  was said
    or what I did
  you never said
    a word
   there was never a look
   judgement 
    critizism
 just love

The world lost it's warmth
  the day lost it's purpose
   nothing seemed as important
    as grieving 

   and like it or not
  I hated the world
     bits of me still do

But then I laughed
  at this world
 at God
   and anything else
  I damn well wanted to

you could take her body
  possibly even her soul
but you won't take these memories
  the ones I share
or the ones I hold

Living in memories
Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2002-04-27 23:24:31
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:25
Poem ID: 69402

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