Hardest Wall to Scale

by Tenna D. - Sagittarius

I walk alone
Just as I stand
no one to stop me
no one that actually cares at all.

Alone in a room
black
I didn't know I was claustrophobic...
Are the walls closing in on me?
or is it my mind
pressing on the only sanity I have left
questioning it.
Questioning my sanity
seeing how far it'll bend
under it's own weight.

Blood red walls
drenched in the lifegiving fluid
of hate
bearing down apon me
almost questioning my being
I have nothing to tell them.
nothing that I've not told them
nothing that they have not seen before.

The voices in my head
grow ever stronger
'do it' they say
'do it for us...'
never.  Never.

Yet they grow
haunting my being
with every word
utter of a sentence from the corner of their lips
my lips
shredding my insides
smirking
as I cry.

They'll never control me
blood red at their fingertips
my fingertips
the only person that can control me
is myself
none of the voices
taunting
glinting their knives
my knives.

The walls
drenched with evidence
hatred
for myself and for them
they can't control me.

Only myself
only myself spattered and drenched
hating myself
hating the world
can control me.

Only the lost thing
abused by herself
hated by herself
hurt by herself
can control me.

and myself is the hardest wall...
Myself is the hardest wall to scale.

Reason for writing:

    It's self-explanitory.    

Birth sign: Sagittarius
Date created: 2002-05-03 05:38:37
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:26
Poem ID: 69464

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