secret of love

by dilpreeta - Taurus

I lived with half truth
somewhere in my subconscious
I always knew
I would not agree to the pretence of your ignorance
My eyes did confess
Only when the feeling grew so sharp
I could no restarin anymore
could not say i were innocent
had known about it,
long before.
Yes it was not so much there
still has a long way to go,
though accompanied with rising fear.

Ages and years have waited to experience this
When it did strike like pleasant pain
unknown not unaware
that it is mostly a one sided show.

Told myself it was not something to bother about
like child's play this phase too will go.
Never ever did realise,
the intensity of a few spoken words
even though it is a long way to go
cannot deny they begin to mean more

Held myself back,
said it was wrong
never did want to feel like this ever before.
It touches your soul and there are moments of ecstasy
while on others,
no matter how hard you try 
there is a pool in your eyes.

What happens when head and heart,
dont play by each others side.
mind calling it wrong,
heart seeking sensitivity,
logic and practicality leading on,
while feelings put ypu at bay.

What more could you ask for circumstances 
dont play your way
little things that give happiness,
turn their backs.
When you wanted to hold hands,
and silently pray for presence.
The harsh truth being,
you were and are alone.

Whom could you blame,
never did you tell.
But what is left to say ,
when you start giving yourself away.
A part of their life in yours you incorporate.
disillusioned with your dreams,
yet dreaming about them wide awake.

Giving time and gaining it,
being patient is not a sacrifice.
a want,to be your very best, 
to try to understand,
probably selfish in your own little way.

Someday it could happen,just their 
reminiscent  incense remaining
causing dismay.
it could be time for you to walk away.

Words are easier said than done 
but are there alternatives
to the secret of each one of our loves
uncanny
they are alike






Birth sign: Taurus
Date created: 2002-05-04 16:39:20
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:16
Poem ID: 69517

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