Facing My Fears

by Samantha - Scorpio

I once feared 
The start of a brand new day
The mystery
And the unknowing
Of how the end would
Eventually come
And sweep all away

I once feared
The strength of your grasp
How tight
And how controlling
You were of my happiness
And how you could take it all away
With just one step
Away from me

You were everything I feared
Or more-the-less
Learned to fear
You were everything he once was
Yet something else completely different
Face-to-face with my rapist
Was what it became when I looked at you
Accusing you of everything he had been

Yet unknowing that you were
Instead
My savior
My white knight come to rescue me
On his own white horse
You weren't him
I would have to come to realise
And you wouldn't do what he did
Which I would have to come to trust

And as you take my hand now
You are teaching me to walk again
Trust again
And you're helping me to rebuild my life
From the very beginning

I once feared 
The start of a brand new day
The mystery
And the unknowing
Of how the end would
Eventually come
And sweep all away

Now I am learning that
The start of a brand new day
Holds the abandonment of him
For I'm finally releasing myself from his hold
With you by my side
Helping me through
The process of Living.

Reason for writing:

    18 months later - the rebuilding of my life takes form.
My Page, "Losing Control":
http://www.stories.com/main/journals.php?item_id=352416    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2002-05-08 22:51:13
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:29
Poem ID: 69623

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