Lately I find myself wondering why I do all the things I do everyday Why I smile and hug when I see my friends Why I chat and laugh as we go our own ways What I do I bring to these peoples lives? And do I even cross their thoughts once I've said goodbye Do they wonder about the days ahead And feel if I weren't there that they'd miss me I mean I know we talk and laugh away the time But is that all it is passing away time This could sound selfish All I'm thinking about is myself But this self-doubt lives within us all And cannot be continually ignored What would they do if I jumped out this window Or threw this computer on the floor What would the people passing by think As I plummeted to the ground Would they gasp in horror Would they hurl in shock Would they even notice As I lay twisted on the ground Would they think what made her do it Surely nothing can be that bad And they'd probably be right Another teenager committing a selfish act All to be heard through the cry's of the world Now my mind hasn't always worked this way Or at least that's what I think And I'm trying to get back to how I felt before But I can't remember how that was anymore And as these thoughts are flashing through my mind I think to myself of leaving this all behind Of going somewhere where I can be free To think and do and be whatever I please And I know you'd be wondering why I did this so And I'd tell you that I just had to go To live things that are different To go places I've never seen To mix in these cultures And meet people with their dreams But I'm here at this moment Trying to make it through these weeks Trying to keep up this optimism And keep going like the rest But sometimes I can't take it And I'm too tired to fight So I lay here on this bed Thinking someday I just might.
Reason for writing:
again please give me your opinions even if its just to tell me it sucked cos i won't be offended i just want peoples opinions!
Birth sign: Aquarius
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