why i've been gone so long

by ALLYSON - Gemini

3 gone i'm left 
who's to blame 
i wanna say god but it would be wronge.

my 3 brothers lay dead in the ground 
my mother soon to join them .
what can i do to help my mother out of her deep depresion .

crying every night wishing i was never born 
then thinking about the man who makes me think twice before killing myself and just so u know its not god . jaired is the one that helps me make it threw every day of my life. i try to act happy on the phone and with my friends when they come around .

but the trueth is that iwanna burst out into tears and run away .

Reason for writing:

    i'm now a only child becaus of my stupid self and i'm soon to be motherless again . jaired i love u so much i honostly do wan't to go jump off a biulding or shoot myself at times but i try to play it cool and act like nothings wronge but its all a lie when i say every things fine . i know you all don't wanna here my sad stories becaus i know that they get annoying but this is why i've been gone so long.    

Birth sign: Gemini
Date created: 2002-05-17 21:04:31
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:31
Poem ID: 69703

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