how many times

by cipher - Aries

so many things,
should have never been said,
so many times,
i wished i was dead,
these thoughts consumed my life,
and as i stare at this knife,
i can feel the pain again,
as if it happened tonight,

would i go back down that road,
will i ever again feel that cold,
sorrounded by the things i fear most,
why do i feel so old,

how many things,
have been forgotten along the way,
how many times,
have i forgotten what to say,
it seems no one understands me,
will i ever be okay,

which way is right,
which path is wrong,
it seems ive been lost forever,
has it been that long,
since the shadows clouded my eyes,
since i threw away the disguise,
i remember all the lies,
why should this come as a surprise....

Reason for writing:

    just releasing some anger....im not sure if anyone on here rememebers what my poems used to be like....pretty depressing and even still some are but ive changed drastically from then till now...different cipher    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2002-08-03 13:56:19
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:32
Poem ID: 69780

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