you:"what the fuck are we going to do chanel, just see other people? thats what you fucking want anyway, right?"
me:"please dont put words in my mouth alex. i dont know what i want."
you:"no offense, but you never know anything. what is wrong with you? what is your fucking problem?"
long silence
you:"well you know what, its been fun. i really think all of this was worth it----"
me:"oh youre not going to say what i think youre saying---
you:"i wish you the best in life and you deserve it because you are a great girl. its been good while it lasted. maybe we will bump into each other one day. im sorry things didnt work out. you just dont know."
long silence
me:"(sigh)..youre telling me goodbye forever alex? you knew this day would come. you knew this was going to happen the minute i came to see you. why is this suddenly all of my fault? what were u planning to do when you went off to college? huh..(silence) exactly what i thought!! you didnt even know what you were going to do so dont even begin to blame and point fingers."
pause
you:"i was hoping i wouldnt fall in love with you. that i would just end up not liking you. why cant you just understand and fucking open up to me?"
me:"im afraid that if i..just never fucking mind."
you:"this is so fucking frustrating. all you do is fucking give me mixed signals. i dont even know what the fuck you want. why did u even bother? im trying really hard to just think that youre wierd and not fucking playing me. because either youre playing me or you are a fucking ignorant idiot. i dont like either one!"
me:"(laugh) what the fuck is your deal dude?"
you:"shut up! youre tearing me up inside chanel. when am i going to fucking see you?
me:"when do you want to?"
you:"before thursday."
me:"start school on tuesday."
you"WHY DIDNT U FUCKING TELL ME!"
me:"why didnt you tell me u were leaving thursday. maybe we could have pushed a little harder on trying to see each other when i was there.
you:"you mean you trying to push a little harder."
me:"(laugh) i was there 2 weeks. the set date i couldnt come. we could have done it any of those other days. i left you messages.
you:"they were all fucking fuzzy."
me:"oh well. maybe you should pick up your fucking phone!!!!"
you:"fuck you chanel!"
me:"fuck me,
if you could actually get it up..maybe you could..."
Reason for writing:
this is for you alex. you need to stop swearing so much at me!!
<!> everything said is true
Birth sign: Virgo
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