FEELINGS INSIDE Every thing around me is dark... its like i wasnt given a heart.... I feel sad basicly every day... Some times i really have nothing to say... My life is confusing & I wish I knew why... But I dont so ill just try to get by... My tears are dry & there painful inside... Im tired of keeping things i dont want to hide.. I want to feel happy I want to feel good I want to feel loved, Like everyone should... Im sick of fighting, Im sick of being sad... I wish little things wouldnt make me soo mad... If i could be as bright as the sun and as big as the sky.. I would try my best every day to survive... This world is a crazy place & nothings the same.. I dream every night of having no name... My days always pass, & end with a tear... If only i had some one to love me and care... I never feel wanted or appreciated by my mother... I wish she could love me for who i am and no other... I sometimes dont get why I'm around Sometimes I cry with out making a sound... I would Rather be hated for who I am .. Then loved for who I am not.. I would rather feel cold... Instead of feeling hot... If i were to pray, could my life turn around? If i were to be lost, Would i every be found? If my crys for pain ... Could turn into laughter... Would i finaly be able to live happily ever after? As i sit on my bed....with my cat by my side... I can sence she can see that im trying to hide... If i were to close my eyes and never open them once more... would my after life be sad and unhappy like the life i had before.. I guess i'll never no when this pain of mine will end .. But im sure it will end without a single friend... So ill put my mind to rest untill sun rises bright... And as for right now im saying good night
Reason for writing:
my first day back home from my best friends house me and my mom got into a fight and i was thinking about everything that upsetted me and i just got really down and depressed so i wrote to help me move on....
Birth sign: Aquarius
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