I dont want to feel pain, I want to have faith, I dont want to feel hurt, I want to have strangth. I dont want to have fear, I want to feel strong I dont want to have negitivity, I want to feel like I Belong. I want to look around, And see things that shine I want to be able to, Live my own life and leave you behind I never saw why I have to put up with it any more. I never saw why I couldnt just get up and walk out that door. I knew that you needed me, And thats why I stayed. But I still sat up every night and I prayed. Prayed for the help, and prayed for the power. I just never thought I could take one more hour. I needed my own life, and I needed my own space, If I was old enough , Id would have got my own place. I couldnt stand it when you'd cry and when you were depressed, We'd been through this whole thing a million times before. To tell you the truth I didn't really want to deal with it no more. I hated it when you didn't understand. I hated it when you'd always yell. Some times I thought it would be better, if I were living in hell If I were now to ever leave you would you be okay. Or would you need me here by your side? Would you need me to stay? Ill never stop loving you, I'll always be here, But sooner or later your gonna have to let me go. And dont think its bacause I dont care. As the Years go by I'll beggin to get older And when you cry at my wedding You can lean on my shoulder. When Im having trouble with my marriage You can help by standing by my side. You can help me try and find my children when there always trying to hide When you become older and weaker and sick and cant stand any more.. I will be holding your hand like you once did for me before.. And when you leave this world.. You'll never leave my heart.. You'll always be with me.. And help me get threw every part.. It will be like you've past and left me behind And I know when you finaly get up in heaven You'll be an angel who will always shine.
Reason for writing:
Just becuz my and my mom fight alot doesnt me i hate her.. i love er and ill always love her and she'll always be the first person i layed eyes on and the first person i loved and not to for get the only person i loved the most..love you mom
Birth sign: Aquarius
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