Circles

by ~Ms. Sarah~ - Cancer

When I see a crowd I imagine you're somewhere in there,
entangled amongst all the different people
And I always think of you being so sorrowful because
there's no me next to you
You're alone in this big scary world, searching for
the missing piece to make you complete 
And I want to be that piece that fits ever
so perfectly into your life
Sometimes I spend hours daydreaming about you,
but I know it only leads me in unending circles
I dont want your pity or your sympathy
Im not even asking for your time
I just know what I feel in my heart for you
Even after the hurtful words you spoke to me
I still cant let you go or tell you good-bye
It tears me up inside to even think those words
Cause when I think about life you're the only thing
that matters in this whole entire universe to me
I only wish that feeling was mutual cause I doubt I
ever come into your thoughts
Like when you're at work or hanging with your friends 
Or spending cold nights snuggled up in a bed with nothing
but a pillow to hold on to
I often long for your attention
Even just a second would be nice
Id do anything to get you to notice me
And that must mean I have problems in my head because
you're not even worth my trouble
And you'll never change, its your biggest fear
You'll live your life running in circles,
away from your fears until once again you'll 
be confronted with them
You'll never learn to deal, only avoid
You've been good at hiding your pain
Keeping a smile in the pouring rain
You only want the sun to shine
and to know in time you'll heal
But its easier to just forget than
live with the thought of remembering
You remember all our good times
All the times I made you happy
You cant say I didnt try
But nothing was enough for you
Nothing can ever be perfect to the perfectionist
such as myself, ive walked in your shoes
Ive been down the same winding roads to nowhere
and the only place i ever end up is back with you
and then once more im stuck
Between loving you while trying to still love myself
I dont think it'll ever work
and I'll always find myself in circles...
Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2002-09-07 21:47:29
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:16
Poem ID: 70062

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