Life is such a dreadful experience when you have no one to share it with When you wake up everyday feeling so unsure of yourself and insecure When you walk through crowds of people and feel completely alone I hate looking in the mirror and despicing the reflection starring back at me Yet I can never find the strength to fix it I just let things boil and fester inside of me until Im ready to erupt I cant take the thoughts of death anymore I know I dont want to die I just want to be free from stress and worry And stop thinking Im not good enough And that everyone is looking at me and judging my every move Sometimes I think everything Im doing is all wrong I wish I knew what was right Life isnt enjoyable when you only see it as a chore That you have to get out of bed everyday and carry on When all you want to do is hide away from the world From all the negative ways that keep influencing you From all the hatred and anger you witness on a daily basis From the person you're afraid you're becoming I never imagined Id be this unhappy That i'd let myself become so miserable and uninterested in anything that life has to offer I dont even want to make the effort anymore Its almost easier to stay in this horrible state Because I wouldnt know where to start to undo all these bad things that have happened to me that have made me feel the way I do Life has no meaning for me right now I just see it as another stupid thing I must do When I try to see the future It looks bleek and empty I think lonliness is the only thing waiting up ahead for me And all these people want me to fail They get pleasure to see me in pain So maybe thats a reason to want to keep going Maybe that should give me a glimmer of hope But unfortunately it doesnt I dont think anything will make me smile again People can keep telling me their fake stories of how the sun will shine again on me But all that stuff is for the day dreamers, not me I dont fall for those pretty lines I dont get caught up in fantasies or dreams Because none of mine have ever came true...
Reason for writing:
Just having a bad day...
Birth sign: Cancer
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