-Life-

by ~Ms. Sarah~ - Cancer

Life is such a dreadful experience when you have
no one to share it with
When you wake up everyday feeling so unsure of
yourself and insecure
When you walk through crowds of people and
feel completely alone
I hate looking in the mirror and despicing the
reflection starring back at me
Yet I can never find the strength to fix it
I just let things boil and fester inside of 
me until Im ready to erupt
I cant take the thoughts of death anymore
I know I dont want to die
I just want to be free from stress and worry
And stop thinking Im not good enough
And that everyone is looking at me and
judging my every move
Sometimes I think everything Im doing is all wrong
I wish I knew what was right
Life isnt enjoyable when you only see it as a chore
That you have to get out of bed everyday and carry on
When all you want to do is hide away from the world
From all the negative ways that keep influencing you
From all the hatred and anger you witness on a daily basis
From the person you're afraid you're becoming
I never imagined Id be this unhappy
That i'd let myself become so miserable and uninterested in
anything that life has to offer
I dont even want to make the effort anymore
Its almost easier to stay in this horrible state
Because I wouldnt know where to start to undo all these
bad things that have happened to me that have made me
feel the way I do
Life has no meaning for me right now
I just see it as another stupid thing I must do
When I try to see the future
It looks bleek and empty
I think lonliness is the only thing waiting
up ahead for me
And all these people want me to fail
They get pleasure to see me in pain
So maybe thats a reason to want to keep going
Maybe that should give me a glimmer of hope
But unfortunately it doesnt
I dont think anything will make me smile again
People can keep telling me their fake stories
of how the sun will shine again on me
But all that stuff is for the day dreamers, not me
I dont fall for those pretty lines
I dont get caught up in fantasies or dreams
Because none of mine have ever came true...

Reason for writing:

    Just having a bad day...    

Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2002-09-25 03:21:53
Last updated: 2021-04-14 17:18:16
Poem ID: 70163

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