Should Have

by ~Ms. Sarah~ - Cancer

If only i could put into words how crappy i feel right now
All the thoughts that flood my brain, they keep
me up for hours
Certain things I cant even explain
Its like everything is going wrong and i think sometimes i made the wrong decisions and now im paying for them
I often wish I would have done better in school so I
could get into a better college
I should have been a better friend to people
I should have done so many things that I now regret
not doing and now im totally screwed
I really miss my best friend and the summer before last
I wish everyday could be like that summer 
But you're there and im here 
and youre busy and im not, ha, so i guess ill just move-on
My life would have been so different
I often sabotage myself because I get scared
I think I'll never make it, 
So I dont even try
And all it ever gets me is tears and unhappiness
Unfulfilled dreams
Im wasting all this potential
I'll never be able to achieve
I often find it hard to breathe
Sometimes I think Im dying
Dying of a "should-have" disease...
Birth sign: Cancer
Date created: 2002-09-25 23:02:51
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:39
Poem ID: 70169

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