The Day I Became What I Didn't Want To Be.

by antwan fields - Aries

We made love late in the night, the summer passed by
I touched his chest, he touched my thigh
It was August 4th, 2004
I went about midway down his throat, he breathed "more"
I stood over him, I had left the bar
I left someone who wanted to be my boyfriend in the tar
As he drank, and danced, and fucked another guy
I targeted, hit, scraped, and stopped being shy
We kissed all night as I ran out the clock
The best kisser I've ever had, and not of my cock
And then it hit me like a thunderbolt, Nothing could have prepared me
for knowing I had become exactly what I didn't want to be.

It came to me in a flash, the thought that was
I looked down at him,into his eyes
And I saw beauty, I kissed him on the train
And forgave everyone a thousand times
I realized once again what everyone had been saying
Since I went under the world the first night
I had been feeling down
But everything finally felt right.

I ended up in his bed
like I have 1000 times before
but this one looked different
I fell to the floor
and we loved, ferally and brutally
Throughout the night and most of the morn
But later on I would wonder
Why I only earned his scorn
I thought long and hard
What had I done, written with a defective pen
But he wouldn't call
Never did, again

I became what I never wanted to be
And I think it'll be bad with a gun
But I guess I'll pick up and go on 
to 1001
Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2004-10-03 15:50:32
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:43
Poem ID: 70369

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