Screwed Up

by Stephanie - Aries

My hopes were up
And now there dead
I’m not there with you
So now I just lie in bed
As I lie there, I start to think
When did my life begin to stink?
Was I ever good? Was I ever fine?
When did it begin to suck, this life of mine
Was it when my mother wanted to die,
And she was no longer at my side.
Or was it before this,
Could it be that I was born into this horror?
And I never had a choice of what I could miss
Now my brain hurts worse than before.
Cuz maybe I’m just being a bitch.
Over reacting and throwing a fit.
Maybe I should shut up and move on.
Cuz that’s what everyone else would have done
But I’m not everyone else, and I love you too much
So I’ll keep doing what I’ve done
Even I end up killing myself

Reason for writing:

    Just got to thinking bout life... and my past    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2004-10-16 21:52:16
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:43
Poem ID: 70396

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