Looking For Perfection

by Annika - Scorpio

As I write, tears race down my cheeks.
I'm so angry, disappointed in myself.
How could I have been so heartless to you?
I loved you so much, I never lied.

I ask myself every day what is wrong with me.
Maybe I wasn't ready for forever,
Maybe I wanted to continue on the search of perfection when perfection obviously doesn't exist.

So few things you asked from me.
Why couldn't I just give you my heart, my soul?
Why couldn't I open up my life to you, tell you my fears and my dreams?

Every day I regret hurting you, I wish I didn't cause you pain.
There's so much I want out of life, I was afraid with you I would never receive it.
I still love you and part of me always will.
My heart will continue to follow its well worn path.

Reason for writing:

    I was in a long distance relationship and I ended it because I'm just not sure where my life is going..Please send me any comments/suggestions. thanks! annikas20@yahoo.com    

Birth sign: Scorpio
Date created: 2004-11-17 03:19:12
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:44
Poem ID: 70430

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