scared of myself

by cipher - Aries

i tear pieces away...
from this hardened shell...
just a glimpse,,its all i want..
a look into my hell...
the walls so thick...
not a sound can be heard....
how can i talk myself out of this...
i cant find the words...
a beam of blinding light appears...
just beyond my wall..
a few more peices to be torn away..
and my eyes will be open to all..
all of the things i hate..
the memories long since past...
each and every, fucking grain...
thats gone through my hourglass...
my anger actually surprises me..
inflicted upon myself....
of course i am alone...just me and my thoughts...
i wish there was someone else...
a person to make this clear to me...
all these unhappy things...
a person who really understands...
alas..tis but a dream...
the final peice has fallen...
and exposed to me all of this...
just thinking looking at the things ive fucked up...
i cant help but get this pissed...
should i walk away..
just turn my head run...
it seems ive travleled much to far..
to let this be un-done...
as i walk into the light...
i turn and look back once...
just to see...if it really is only me...
am i the only one?

Reason for writing:

    just my some shit i wanted to say i guess...been having writers block lately......cipher    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2005-03-03 21:15:07
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:48
Poem ID: 70647

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