Hide

by Twan - Aries

Show myself and be destroyed, be hurt and turned upon
Defeated on the field of battle, my arms slumping
I hide myself again from those who would eradicate me
I don't know if you notice, but I hurt just like you
I have my down periods, Sometimes I don't want to live
I want more from life but I don't deserve it, I think
The evil ones celebrate my destruction with glee
I wonder if I'll ever be able to come out of this hole
Effexor, Zyprexa, I'm a danger to all
Or am I just nothing, nobody, nowhere
Life may not be serious, and it may not be fair
Hiding my true self, Hiding from you all
Hiding myself as I begin to fall
Don't you know me, I scream, am I not real?
Don't I have blood, flesh, don't I feel?
But they laughed, and made fun, and I was less 
And I loved the girl in the picture, she was nice to look at, she wasn't stuck up or worse
Not like the other bitch, whose name I curse

Walk with me toward the end of the line and I'll tell you the truth, even while it hurts me to be
Walk with me, and I'll tell you why
Walk with me as I hide my real self
And as I add another day to this lie
I want to throw off my shroud, let my wings shoot out and become.
But I can't, I have to lay down and play dumb
Look at me, I scream, Don't you ever wonder why?
Why I wanted to commit suicide, why I needed to die?
I look into the mirror and start to see
why I'm heading faster and faster toward my own mortality
I can hide or die.

Reason for writing:

    Something I swore I'd never do.    

Birth sign: Aries
Date created: 2005-03-09 22:18:01
Last updated: 2021-03-03 14:46:48
Poem ID: 70671

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